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Saturday, November 20, 2010


Okay, today was an absolute fail, both with eating and smoking. Just wanted to put that out there. More later, I'm exhausted.

Thursday, November 18, 2010

catch up time

We have been busy; which is good.  So, I have not posted as much lately.

Don’t worry – I have NOT given up and everything is being accounted for. 

Tuesday night I cleaned my living room really well.  It needed it since that is the room Lars, and everyone else,  is in most of the time.  Wednesday Chris and I had date night.  We lit a fire, ate dinner, drank wine, and watched a movie.  It sounds awesome, right? Well, we also had a crying baby that did NOT want to go to sleep.  We had parents in the house coming and going.  Not perfect but very romantic and fun for what we could do!



Not much activity but a little is good.


Something is wrong though.  There is NO way that sweeping the floor would burn more calories than sex, but that is what FitDay says.  I would like to challenge that big time!  More research will be done on this. 



Wednesday: We had our Thanksgiving celebration thing at work so I did go over a bit (between that and date night I didn't stand a chance and I was totally ok with that!)image


New Stats!!!! Woo Hoo!!


Wednesday, November 17, 2010

My Turn to Come Clean

Today's stats:
calories in: 1484
exercise: not much. walked about 15 minutes total, to and from my car a couple of times


Okay, here we go. I've started my diet today. I don't know how much of a diet it actually is. I think its more watching my portion control. That's always been my big problem (no pun intended).

Since Lisa was brave enough to do it, I will, too. I don't have the nifty table that she does, though, because my preferred website doesn't offer it ( Here are my starting stats:
Starting weight: 260 lbs
Height: 5'10"
Goal weight: 170 lbs (90 pounds total loss)
Initial goal: -10%, to 242 lbs

Mini-goal #1 - Drink 64 oz of water per day and restrict myself to no more than 3 DDPs a day


I've been complaining about my weight for forever. I can't remember when I started to be overweight, but I remember being more solid than the other girls in 5th grade. Various parts of my family run big, so I'm working against several things here: genetics, lazyness, lack of money (to buy healthy food), etc. I've been trying to become more active since 2005, when I started back to undergrad. I was walking at least a mile a day (around campus), so I actually lost the freshman 15 instead of gaining it. I've been trying to eat healthy and watch more portion control off and on (more off than on) since 2007. I've been up and down a little bit since then, but always within 20 pounds total.

I hate being fat. I hate having to shop in the plus sizes (where all the designers think that you either want to wear grandma clothes or a circus tent). I hate finding cute clothes and only having a size 10 or 12 available. I hate having to squeeze in places made for smaller people than me (public toilet stalls are a place that immediately spring to mind). I want to be able to ride with my children on roller coasters and not worry about whether or not I'm going to fit in the seat. I want to be able to look down at my feet without having to bend forward (which is kind of a normal thing for girls, I would think) or suck in my stomach. I want my boobs to stick our further than my stomach, which is not the case right now. Also, I don't want to have weight-related diabetes, whichever type that is. My grandmother has it, my dad has it, my aunt and uncle have it, maybe my other uncle has it... I don't want heart or cholesterol or blood pressure problems, either (although we all know that those aren't necessarily weight related).

I want to be pretty. Okay, okay, fine, I want to *feel* pretty. I do occasionally, but not all the time. I want to wear cute clothes. I want to be able to have more than two pairs of jeans (its hard to find good jeans that fit comfortably).

Okay, so there's my sob story. It's a lot of me feeling sorry for myself. I got myself into this mess over the past 28 years, and there's not a magic wand to wave that will reset it for me (I think video games have ruined us a little bit). Its going to take hard and dedication and just a little (or maybe a lot) of ass kicking. I need someone to kick it for me sometimes. Lisa, maybe you can do that for me, and I'll do it for you. I've tried losing weight before and it petered out. Maybe having someone working on the same thing with me will help me with it. It definitely doesn't help that at the moment, my loving husband can eat anything he wants. He has to fight to keep weight on rather than the reverse.

Starting a diet right before the holidays is perhaps not the best idea, but neither is coming up with yet another excuse to put it off. I'll watch the amounts of what I eat for right now, and try to be consistent with entering the information into caloriecount.

My ultimate goal? Being happy with how I look, regardless of what that final weight ends up being. I also want to be a runner. I want to be able to take my dog out for a jog, or go for a run for a couple of miles. There's some nice scenery around here. I think it would be a good way to see it.

Monday, November 15, 2010

Do I look lighter to you?

What? well, I should.  I mean, I AM!



This is the thing that might be the biggest difference in doing this with Becky; hers is either on or off.  Either she smokes or she doesn’t.  There is not a lot of tracking or results she gets to see right away.  Once her lungs get working again she will see more; breathing easier will be a result she will love!!  With weight loss it is something I constantly have to keep track of and keep an eye on.  But the good side is I get little victories too :O)

There was another damn birthday today! Seriously why do we eat junk food to celebrate people being born?  We should get cake for the birthday person and veggies / fruit for everyone else.  Ugh, this time I ate the entire cupcake.  I started to  feel a little guilty but not enough to stop eating it.  It was good and worth it. 

Today’s damage:


While the cupcake was worth the calories the lunch was NOT.  Don’t bother with Marie Callender’s microwave meals from off the shelf (Fresh Mixers they might be called) though I don’t know about the frozen stuff.  None of the flavors I have had are any good.  The Healthy Choice, on the other hand, are good! Well, except the Szechwan beef and Asian-style noodles – it tastes like paint, yet it is not even a good color.  Go figure.

Anyway no walking today.  We had a huge client at work today so I had to wear dress shoes. Ugh – lame! I am pretty sure the clients were not looking at my feet. Smile


So this is actually going a whole lot easier than I thought it would, so far.  I mean this counting calories is a cinch!  I eat anything I want as long as I stick to my calories.  I got that…pretty much.  Now I will work on eating healthier stuff; making healthier choices. 

I may think of a few healthy things to make for Thanksgiving. 


Anyone have any suggestions or comments on how to make this blog better?  Sorry, naked pictures are not an option… yet. 

1 Week Down

I feel sometimes like I am working towards something. Okay, maybe that's a stupid statement, because obviously, I am. But it feels almost like weight loss, where you get down to a certain weight and you move to a "maintenance" diet. I feel like once I hit a certain time frame, then I'll have an occasional cigarette again. It's a weird feeling.

So I've been smoke-free for a week now. I will admit, I've been looking for a cigarette, but not hard or successfully. I was going to visit a friend (who smokes) on Sunday and I was going to bum a smoke - turns out he wasn't home. I wouldn't be terribly upset if Patrick brought home a cigarette, but he's been surprisingly good. The one or two smokers in my lab haven't asked me to go smoke with them (not knowing that I quit), and in fact when I walk by, they aren't usually out there. Every time I'm in a situation where I have the ability to get a cigarette, it doesn't work out.

So instead of complaining about it, or wondering/planning when the next time I'm going to get a cigarette is, I'm going to say yay me! 1 week, smoke-free. I'm not necessarily over the hump, but I'm definitely on my way.

Now I need to honestly take a good hard look at my weight. Yes, I need to focus on staying quit of cigarettes (and yes, I also realize that's not grammatical correct, but its fun to say) for a good long time before focusing on weight loss, but I can't take it anymore. I have got to do something. Will it ruin this whole pact thing that we have going, Lisa, if I change mine from no smoking no no smoking *and* weight loss?