tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-42630808238004037192024-02-02T03:16:30.837-06:00The Vice GirlsLisa and Becky trying like hell to get healthier and thinner. Ok, most days we try like hell. Sometimes? Just read. You'll laugh, probably not cry, but you just might be a bit entertained.Lisahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00441839840378312195noreply@blogger.comBlogger64125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4263080823800403719.post-79120798826065029252012-02-29T19:49:00.000-06:002012-02-29T19:49:02.963-06:00Spaghetti with Veggies - Simple and Delicious!This one was simple. <br />
While the water is boiling for the pasta I started to sautee the following:<br />
1 red onion, chopped<br />
4 bunches spinach, chopped<br />
1 bell pepper, chopped<br />
minced garlic, i used about 4 tablespoons, I love garlic<br />
4 mushrooms<br />
olive oil<br />
sesame seeds<br />
chili oil<br />
black pepper<br />
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I sauteed those enough so that the veggies are still a bit crunchy...I like them that way. Then I took them off the heat. <br />
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Then the pasta cooks and you top the pasta with the veggies an a little more olive oil. I also diced up fresh tomatoes for on top. <br />
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Easy peasy! Very light and yummy.<br />
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<br />Lisahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00441839840378312195noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4263080823800403719.post-47052746238652394632012-02-29T19:10:00.000-06:002012-02-29T19:19:17.089-06:00A little bit of vegan in my lifeI am not a PETA freak. I would like to just start by stating that fact. Yes, I love animals immensely and that does have something to do with this choice. However, the main reason for going vegan is that I think it is healthier; I think it is MUCH healthier. When I lived in NY I was a vegetarian for quite some time. I loved it! I felt healthy, I looked great, and it was pretty damn easy there. I mean, in upstate NY there are farms everywhere. Yes, there are Starbucks on every corner too but farms, farmers markets, organic this, fresh that, and even a ton of amazing wineries (not that wineries have anything to do with it). So, it was super easy. <br />
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Even with Texas telling me no, I say YES and here we go. It has been SO much easier than I thought it would be. It is super delicious and makes me feel infinitely better. <br />
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I did not realize how much better I felt until last week when I stopped it. We had a party last week and had so much crap an then left overs so we ate really bad all week. I mean, REALLY bad. I did not, luckily, gain all the weight back but I did feel worse than if I had. <br />
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Here I am back on it and loving every minute of it. There are certain things I miss; I miss cheese the most. But, not enough to eat it. <br />
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The most wonderful and amazing part of this is that Chris is loving it. Not just liking it; he is LOVING it. Almost every meal I have made ends with him declaring, "This is my favorite one yet!". For someone who has always said he hates vegetables, that is a victory.<br />
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<br /></div>Lisahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00441839840378312195noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4263080823800403719.post-55543823517413068282012-02-03T11:06:00.003-06:002012-02-03T11:29:59.709-06:00ExcusesSo this morning the scale said I was down 5 pounds. Whoohoo, go me! I've had three good days, and hopefully today will be another one. I've been updating my calorie count website religiously, even with dinner (which I don't usually do). I hope it keeps going down (I know that's up to me, though).<br /><br />So here's the list of my excuses that keep me from exercising/eating right:<br /><br />1) My foot hurts.<br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Explanation</span>: I somehow hurt it this past July in Colorado. Been to the doctor, had x-rays taken, they can't find anything. If I walk too much on it, it hurts, to the point where I can't really walk on it.<br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Why it's stupid:</span> Walk through the pain! It hurts on and off, but usually off when I go to the doctor. Maybe this will make it so that it's actually hurting when I go! But seriously, have to exercise the foot, otherwise it's always going to be like this. Then, in 20 years when I weigh 500 pounds, I won't have to worry about my foot hurting, because I will be in a scooter, so there will never be any weight on it.<br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">What I should say instead:</span> Soaking it in hot water when it is aching generally makes the ache go away. Try that instead, ya whiny baby!<br /><br />2) I ran out of time.<br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Explanation</span>: This is usually said in regards to breakfast, right before I stop at Whataburger and get two bacon, egg, and cheese taquitos, an orange, and a coffee. Yummy, but that's almost 1000 calories right there, just for breakfast.<br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Why it's stupid:</span> 1000 calories. For breakfast. As opposed to the normal 300-400 that I eat.<br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">What I should say/do instead:</span> Get up earlier so that I'm not running later with the kids? Go back home after dropping them off and eat breakfast then? Take my oatmeal in a microwaveable container and have it at work? Have some stuff on hand that I can grab and go (granola, yogurt, fruit, etc). If I have time to make coffee, I have time to assemble a breakfast that I can eat when I get to work. If I don't have time to make coffee and I stop at 7-Eleven to get some, well, they sell fruit, too. Or cereal. Something. Occasionally, Whataburger is okay for breakfast, even at 1000 calories for a meal. But it needs to be a very active day, or truly only once in a while. Not every Friday.<br /><br />3) I don't have the time to exercise.<br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Explanation</span>: So that means I can't do the Couch-to-5K program, or go to the gym for step classes, or go swimming. I can't get up early to do some yoga at home, because I like to sleep. I can't exercise after the kids go to sleep because that would mean walking around the neighborhood - in the dark - and leaving them home alone.<br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Why it's stupid:</span> Free gym access at school. Free exercise classes. Walking around before I come to work. No classes at all during the day.<br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">What I should do instead:</span> I can take an hour or two to go the gym during the day, including bringing shower stuff so I can take a shower after. I can even go at 400, so I don't have to worry about having wet hair for the rest of the day. I can walk around for 30 minutes to an hour before coming into work and getting started, or walk for a break or after lunch. I have some ygoa tapes at home, as well as some others. I also have YouTube on my TV, so I can do it that way. Dogs are bothering me as I'm trying to do this? Stick them outside. Find a step for cheap. Find a treadmill for cheap. Try setting an "easy" routine and sticking to it (so many sit ups, so many pushups, etc, etc).<br /><br />4) It's expensive to buy healthy food and we don't always have the money to do so.<br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Explanation:</span> When you have to buy dog food, cat food, diapers, and laundry detergent in one week, this cuts sharply into the grocery store budget. Getting food for the week takes priority over buying healthy soup for lunch or stuff to make an interesting (re: lots of stuff on it that will fill me up) salad. Hamburger helper and spaghetti for dinner for the week sometimes just has to happen.<br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Why it's stupid:</span> Well, this one isn't quite so stupid, because I don't necessarily have total control over this. You gotta do what you gotta do to make ends meet and make sure that everyone is fed satisfactorily, healthy or not.<br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">What I should do instead:</span> Watch portion control. Yeah, hamburger helper may not be the greatest thing for me, calorie and fat content wise, but if you have no choice... Be willing to buy cheaper stuff at the store (generic versus name brand). Make enough chicken, etc, for leftovers the next day and take that to work. Get up and move more, so that even if I am taking in more calories, hopefully I'm using them more/better. Eat slower, drink more water before, during and after meals. I already know that I eat too much, one of my main problems, so maybe that would help with letting my brain catch up to my stomach with being finished. Cut out nonessentials from the grocery budget (no more Diet Dr. Pepper for Becky).<br /><br />I have more excuses, but I can't think of them right now. When I can. I will try to update the list.<br /><br />5 pounds down. Let's keep going!Beckyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08772012884912668933noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4263080823800403719.post-79948957363725664042012-02-01T20:59:00.002-06:002012-02-01T20:59:20.297-06:00I've been a bad, bad girl...Yes I have but not in the way you might think. Yes, I have gained some weight back since doing this (my last post was SEPTEMBER 2011!! Ugh!), but not much. I was 258 and now am 262 - not too bad considering that it is January. That means I made it through the holidays gaining 4 pounds. Granted, i have lost a couple of pounds within the past two weeks or so, but not many. MAYBE 4, if that. The "bad girl" is how I have been losing it. No, I have not gone anorexic or bulimic, and I feel fine so it is not that bad no matter what anyone tells me. Basically, I am eating once a day. Becky will say how horrible this is but i really REALLY like it. If I get really hungry during the day, I will eat. Like today, I was staving this morning so I ate and then I ate dinner. But most days, I can go until dinner without wanting anything at all. Then when dinner comes, I don't eat a crap-ton like I used to. Although, I eat what I want. This is one way I know of to snap my body back into wanting smaller meals. I was doing this when Chris and I started dating and I looked GREAT (to me anyway). So, I did this for a while and then when I started eating more meals a day, they were much smaller. that is my intent. This is not a long term plan - just s short term "snap my stomach back into the smaller size so I can eat less" mode.<br />
So, Becky, no lecture about how I need to eat at least 1200 calories (I probably get about that each day with my dinner anyway). <br />
This year I have so much to work towards! I have my bonus sister's wedding in June, where I am a part of the wedding so I want to look beautiful. I have New Orleans, as usual, where i want to look boobilicious, and then there is the fabulous Halloween in October where I want to look HOT as HELL. <br />
I only have 21 weeks until the wedding. That is exactly 3 pounds a week to get me to 199. I WANT THAT. <br />
I need t set that in my mind and make it happen. Easy, right?Lisahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00441839840378312195noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4263080823800403719.post-21232578754117177912012-02-01T20:17:00.002-06:002012-02-01T20:29:57.426-06:00Achievements!I've had two decent days in a row. Accomplishments? Well, tonight we had pancakes. I had one serving of three pancakes and that's it, rather than having two servings of three. It's a step in the right direction. I didn't snack when I came home from work before I got the kids. I didn't snack too much last night, although I had a little more than I intended (a popsicle, when I had already gone over my calories for the day).<br /><br />I have a website that I use to count calories. I'm sure I've mentioned it before, but I'm a fan. It's free, which is nice. I've been using this website off and on since 2007. They have discussion boards, etc, that you can use for support in losing weight. There was one that I was a member of for a while, called the 200 club. It was for those of us who were, unfortunately, over 200 pounds. For a while, it was a really great group of ladies who were all very supportive and active in posting, giving diet tips and stuff. I ran out of time to visit it every day, though, and there were enough active posters on there that that was the only way I stayed up to date with it. I wonder if any of those ladies met their goal weight. There was one lady, Ellen, who was in her late 50s, early 60s, and was losing 80+ pounds for the second time. She was inspiring, because she just made it look so easy! In the time that I was on there, she lost 45 pounds. In the time that I was on there, I think I sat at about 15 or 20 lost. So, yeah, inspiring, but also frustrating. What was she doing that I wasn't?<br /><br />Anyways, this website has started something new called Calorie Camp. You log your food for the day and set yourself goals (mine are currently to log my food every day, to get at least 30 min of physical activity at least 4 times a week, and to drink at least 64 oz of water a day. Sound familiar?). You can also get other achievements. One that I saw was to walk/run at least 30 miles in a month. Apparently, as you hit all these goals and achievements and everything, you rack up points. Then, when you hit certain levels, you can cash in those points for real things, like a $25 gift certificate to a certain shoe store (that's the only one I can remember off the top of my head). That's pretty cool, but it's also pretty cool - and addicting - to see the points rack up. This is how I got sucked in to Zoo World on FB for a little bit last year - the addiction of accumulating stuff!<br /><br />So, I don't know, maybe this will help. It certainly can't hurt. It's rough trying to log my calories completely every day, but only when I'm at home; what can I say, I'm lazy. Plus, sometimes it's just time-consuming. Like today, I had a spinach salad with chicken, cherry tomatoes, avocado, and a hard boiled egg with Fat Free Asian Toasted Sesame dressing from Kraft (yummy, yummy!). I had to log each thing, with estimated amounts. Sometimes, it gives the amounts in ounces or grams or "recommended serving". This is not always the most helpful. I try to estimate as I go, but I'm probably off. I take the ending calorie count with a grain of salt each day. Like today, my goal is 1600 per day, and I'm coming in at 1649. That's awesome for me. Makes me think that I'm doing something wrong, as in, forgot to log something.<br /><br />Who knows, maybe I've just had two good days. And that's where it all starts, right? Having more good days than bad days.Beckyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08772012884912668933noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4263080823800403719.post-29876453342750150932012-01-31T10:43:00.002-06:002012-01-31T10:54:33.875-06:00New GoalsOkay, I have no idea if anyone is even still following this, but what the hell. I actually lost some weight last year when we were keeping up with this semi-regularly. I think I was down 14 pounds, which isn't much, but hey, it's something, right! Well, since then, I've gained it all back, plus a little bit. I'm heading dangerously close to an all-time high... and that includes when I was pregnant with the boy. That's depressing. In the interest of full disclosure, the scale read 268 this morning. My high weight is 274, and that's when I was pregnant. This currently is my non-pregnant high weight.<br /><br />In reading back through some of this, Lisa and I have the same problem (and we keep going over the same ground). We have no motivation. The motivation sparks briefly, and then flies away quickly. It's just so much easier to keep doing what we are doing. Yeah, okay, we'll try to snack a little less, maybe put down the brownie and pick up a carrot or something, but other then that... It's easier to complain. And whine, and moan. And buy new clothes when our old ones don't fit. And look at plus-size fashions and wonder why all the designers want us to look like circus tents.<br /><br />At the new year, well, it was time for a new resolution. Lose weight. Again. Same one as always. I joined a weight loss challenge that, unfortunately, didn't really go anywhere. I decided to do my own personal week-long challenges, and surprisingly, have had some success with it.<br /><br />First week: drink at least 64 oz. of water a day. Check.<br />Second week: In addition week one's challenge, try to walk at least 30 min, at least three times a week. (I noticed that when I was losing weight before, I was actually walking a whole bunch. Time to get back to that.)<br />Third week: In addition to the first two, try to have 3-5 servings of veggies a day. (This one is a bit harder, I'm still working on it.)<br /><br />I have a time frame on losing just a little bit, though, and it doesn't have anything to do with a weight-loss challenge. Before hot weather gets here, I need to lose at least 20 pounds. Otherwise, none of my capris will fit, and I'll have to spend money to buy some more. In a bigger size. Very depressing. They were already getting a little tight at the end of last summer, and I've put on a little bit more weight since then. I don't want to go up a size. I want to buy new clothes because they are all too big.<br /><br />I still want a used treadmill for my house, and now I want to add to that a step board so that I can do step classes at home, rather than trying to work it into my schedule at school. I'm trying to set myself little goals so that I'm not overwhelmed and give up so fast. Besides the mini-challenges, I think that my next one is to get up early at least two days out of the week and do some yoga in the morning.<br /><br />So, I'm trying. The spark is not quite out, although some days it burns brighter than others.Beckyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08772012884912668933noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4263080823800403719.post-87061749013102885242011-09-08T13:12:00.000-05:002011-09-08T13:12:26.259-05:00Here veggie, veggie, veggie... come here girl...Last night I wanted a quesadilla. So, I had one. bUT I decided I should sneak in some veggies. I mean, they are just sitting in my fridge getting lonely anyway. Before, they knew what hit 'em, I had cheese, tomatoes, and broccoli in there. Man, was it yummy! Plus, afterwards I felt pretty good about it. Hell yeah, it had a ton of cheese in it (I can't change who I am) but it had more veggies than it would have had and that, my friends, is what I call a step.Lisahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00441839840378312195noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4263080823800403719.post-1373889749949525902011-09-05T20:39:00.004-05:002011-09-05T20:39:43.047-05:00So, now I am a quitter and still fat. Fat quitter.I haven't been here lately, I realize this. Mostly, it has been on purpose. The eating has not been good and the exercise has been non-existent. while I have lost a couple measly pounds, it really has more to do with not eating as much, me thinks, as eating correctly. Great Scott, I have not been eating right. In the past month I may have had 5 servings of veggies. total. Two of those were in the past week. <br />
There is nothing to blame it on except myself. <br />
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However, I bought a lot of veggies, and much less crap, at the store this week so there's some hope. <br />
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How the hell do I find the motivation? Seriously, nothing helps. I look to myself, I look to others, the internet, I don't know what else to do. Nothing I tell myself and nothing others tell me does anything. <br />
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It will come to me. I will figure this out. I will beat this.<br />
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Yeah, I say it but as I type it, I know it is not true. <br />
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Lisahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00441839840378312195noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4263080823800403719.post-2576627142096789152011-06-08T09:02:00.002-05:002011-06-08T09:09:33.208-05:00Yeah well, I'm not fat, I'm just fluffyCurrent Stats:<br /><br />CW: 247 lbs<br />SW: 260 lbs<br /><br />TL: -13 lbs<br />1st goal: -26 lbs<br /><br />*****<br /><br />So I find it ironic that after I preached and ranted for a little bit (okay, maybe a lot) in my last post about not being down on yourself, the only person who can beat you is yourself, yadda-yadda, I hit a slump. Down in the dumps, not eating right, not exercising, upset at night because of how I look. Fitting, is it not? ;)<br /><br />Each morning, though, I'm trying again. Breakfast is usually decent (I've discovered it's amazing how much cereal you can have it the morning and still be pretty low on calories), lunch can be okay, depending on if I go get food or eat what I've brought. Dinner starts the downhill slide, especially now that Patrick has gone back to working nights. Not that I'm blaming him, or anything like that. It's all on me to lose weight and eat right, and I don't expect anyone to stand over me and monitor everything (wouldn't that be nice, though?). However, when he's home, there's no binge-eating late at night. There's no cake for dessert, and if there is, there's definitely not two pieces. I guess this is because, even though he's been with me for over ten years now, I still don't necessarily want him to see me stuff my face like a pig.<br /><br />It's is nice, however, that I haven't gone back into the 250s. It's come close. Closer than I wanted to. It's stayed int eh 40s, though, so that's nice. Now I just need to focus on getting down out of the 40s and into the 30s. This is the disappointing part about actually setting goals - failure to reach them. According to my goals on the side of the page, I was supposed to be down 10% by now and working on another 10%. But at least I'm down a little bit, right? Every little bit is nice and means that I'm working on it.<br /><br />I went shopping for shirts recently. I've discovered two things: I can wear 12/14 (misses) and XXL (19 in juniors), and because of this, they are cutting clothes bigger these days. I look at myself in the mirror and yes, I know I've lost some weight. I've maybe lost some inches, although I can't really tell where. However, I definitely don't think that I've lost enough to be able to say that I can wear a 12/14. Maybe that's just because I've been out of that size for so long that I see it is something only medium-size people can wear. Maybe that's where the faulty thinking is coming in. Not sure. However, it does mean that I get some cuter shirts as an option, as well as firmly being in the 16 sizes.<br /><br />Now for the smoking side of things - the last I checked in with smoking, I was depressed because my lungs hurt, I couldn't breathe, I wasn't doing great on not smoking... Now I have an electronic cigarette and things are definitely looking up on that front. I haven't had a real cigarette since May 30th (8 days ago, right?). I did have a puff off of a cigarette this past Saturday, but that was just to compare. At first, I was like, there's no difference between this real cigarette and my e-cig! In fact, I feel like there's something in the real cigarette that I've been missing! Then the nastiness hit me - the smell, the gross taste in the my mouth, the heaviness in my lungs... No thank you.<br /><br />So for those who don't know what an electronic cigarette is, you can Google it. I'll tell you that it has a battery and vaporizes a liquid that you inhale. You can get nicotine (which is, in fact, the point) or not. There are all sorts of flavors you can get. We have stuck with nicotine for now, however. It's supposed to taste like a Marlboro Light, but I call shenanigans on that. That's fine, though, because it gets the job done. So you push a button, it vaporizes some liquid, and you inhale it. What you exhale is supposed to be pretty close to just water vapor, which is why, technically, we could use these things anywhere (school, work, hospitals, restaurants, whatever). I "tested" it on someone who doesn't smoke and is pretty sensitive to the smell of cigarette smoke (by testing it I mean I smoked it right next to her) and she didn't smell anything at all.<br /><br />We can use them around the kids and there's no chance of effects from second-hand smoke, because there's no smoke. There's no tar, no carbon monoxide, not nearly as many additives (I've read that it went from 200+ additives in cigarettes to about 14 in e-cigs). The carcinogens are gone from this. Nicotine itself is addictive, yes, but from what I understand is not the ingredient in cigarettes that gives you cancer and emphysema and all that other nasty crap. We don't smell bad anymore. We don't have to carry lighters anymore. There's no litter because there's no butts. I don't have to worry about live embers catching grass on fire or burning someone as they walk by or whatever.<br /><br />It's a pretty good deal in my head. Now I'm thinking that there have to be *some* side effects, because otherwise, why wouldn't e-cigs completely replace regular tobacco cigs? (Okay, with that question, I've answered it myself. Tobacco companies would freak at this, although if they'd hopped on the e-cig train from the beginning... Anyways, I digress.)<br /><br />So my lungs are feeling better although I still haven't gone through the "withdrawal" part of things (coughing up the nastiness from my lungs, getting a better sense of smell, etc). Maybe I just need to wait a little longer to feel a lot better. When we were in the store buying the cigarettes, there were two people there who already use these things. One guy went from smoking 2 packs a day (!) to just using his e-cig and has been for a couple of months, and another lady had been smoking for years and years and has been using only her e-cig for 21 weeks with no plans to go back. So it looks like this has definite possibilities for long term use, as well as for weaning ourselves off of nicotine completely. It's definitely cheaper. Besides the start-up cost (about 120 bucks), we'll go from spending over 200 bucks a month to spending around 30 a month (on the liquid and apparently the atomizers). Within the first month, it's paid for itself.<br /><br />This thing is good. I like it. And don't worry, unless you tell me I can, I won't smoke it in your house or car, I'll still go outside. I'm a polite person. :)<br /><br />And on another random note, I'm a very parenthetical writer, aren't I? I wonder if that's annoying to other people. Not to me. It's just how I write my thoughts down. :) Thanks for reading!Beckyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08772012884912668933noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4263080823800403719.post-12900435823349572112011-06-04T01:03:00.000-05:002011-06-04T01:03:40.998-05:00My new diet. Becky, you should like this, it's all scientific and stuff.Oh, yeah.<br />
<a href="http://www.stumbleupon.com/su/1vZajs/astro.berkeley.edu/~gmarcy/thermal/tpteacher/jokes/icecream.html">Beer and ice cream diet</a>Lisahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00441839840378312195noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4263080823800403719.post-4522897368395980182011-06-01T22:37:00.000-05:002011-06-01T22:37:49.279-05:00StagnantI really don't have much to say tonight. I have been up and down this week, being in Austin did not help matters at all. In fact, it hurt it a few pounds. However, it is about that time again when I start to really crave sweets. Trust me, I really do try hard and I really am not eating all that much. <br />
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So, I will need to change things up quite a bit here soon. How, is not something I know yet but hopefully it will come to me soon.Lisahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00441839840378312195noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4263080823800403719.post-88257572777860382702011-05-27T09:37:00.000-05:002011-05-27T09:37:23.790-05:00It's a good thing I'm funny, because man, I'm fatBecky, Becky, Becky... boy, that post was for me, wasn't it!?<br />
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Yes, I have been down on myself lately, because I have felt like (almost) a complete failure at this. I say almost because I am still down a total of anywhere from 10 - 12 pounds. I am stuck there, it seems, destined to be forever in limbo at this weight mark on the scale. The miserable bobbing bar on the physician scale at work taunts me; it mocks me every single time I step on. "Hahaha! You won't get lower than this. You don't have the power to make my bar raise.", it says to me and I walk away sulking. 263 - 264 is where I am hovering (if only I were light enough to hover). So, yes, I have my own pity parties but I know I will get down to 262 and rejoice again! It only takes one tiny bit of glimmer to make me shine again; it just takes a lot to get that glimmer going sometimes. <br />
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So, I am still trying. Maybe not as hard-core as before, but I am still absolutely trying. There is no giving up for me on this; I am in for the long haul. I am in for life (both as a reference to time and reason). <br />
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Maybe, just maybe, it will help if I do start posting daily. Will you get sick of hearing from me? I am betting, ummm, HELL YES. But, I can say with 100% certainty and selfishness that I am doing this for ME and not you so, there. :O)<br />
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Also, as smart as I think I am most of the time, I have some pretty stupid plans. For example, I log all my food and then decide, "Oh, I've got this, I don't really need to log everything anymore". When in actuality, the times I start slowing my weight loss, or forcing it to come to a mind altering halt, are the times that I stop logging my food. DOH! What an eye opener that is. I need to realize that being lazy and cutting corners is what got me into this situation to begin with so why am I still looking for the easy way out, the path of least resistance? Well, slap me and call me Ginger, I have got to stop doing that! <br />
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Last night I went out with some friends and had a great time! I drank three margaritas and did not care about calories or carbs or anything. We went to On the Border and I did eat a bit of a few appetizers but I really did not eat that much. If nothing else, eating better over the past few months has made me eat MUCH less. That is a plus! <br />
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Becky, I love you too and also thank you for all of your support and motivation! You are also totally fun to hang out with! I may have my bad moments and think really bad things about myself but for the most part I am proud of what we are doing here, both in what we have done and what we will do. Lisahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00441839840378312195noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4263080823800403719.post-38447532187546525622011-05-26T19:41:00.002-05:002011-05-26T20:19:36.061-05:00The Power of Positive ThinkingCW: 242 lbs<br />SW: 260 lbs<br /><br />TL: -18 lbs<br />1st goal: -26 lbs<br /><br />*****<br /><br />Okay, so I know that that title is dorky, campy, cliched, whatever... However, unfortunately, I also think that it's true. Not to the point of "visualizing good things coming your way" or whatever happy-crappy New Age bullshit, but being able to genuinely believe in yourself and think well of yourself.<br /><br />Now, I've declared myself Queen of the Pity Party before (when I was younger) and I will gladly pass that title along to someone else. Someone deserving. You know, like an entitled 16 year old brat that thinks that nothing in life is fair, no one loves her, she's going to go eat worms (as my mother is fond of telling me). I used to have horrible self-esteem (read: none), and only through time, wonderful friends and family, and a husband who loves me so much even after ten years together did I develop self-esteem. Now, I still have my problems, but who doesn't? For the most part, I think well of myself. I think I'm deserving of good things. But most of all, I think that I can do whatever I set my mind to do, because I'm damn stubborn, thank you very much.<br /><br />Apparently, however, having a bad attitude about yourself for so long starts habits that sometimes you aren't even aware of. I was talking to friend a couple of months back at a party. We had been sitting around drinking and catching up for several hours (so we were feeling very good), and I said something that I didn't think was too bad. I can't remember what it was, but she called me on it and told me to stop being so down on myself. I was surprised, because like I said, I didn't think it was that bad.<br /><br />But you get in the habit of saying, "I'm fat. I'm ugly. I can't wear anything cute." Then it graduates to "It's a good thing I'm funny, because man, I'm fat/ugly/whatever. Man, I look good today, which is a change for me." Hopefully, you get to the point where you think well about yourself for the most part, but the self-deprecation always shows up. (A side note: I looked up self-deprecating in the dictionary to make sure that I was using it right, and I was struck by the definition: "belittling or undervaluing oneself; excessive modesty". Think on that for a little bit.) A good thing about yourself, followed by a bad thing. Example: I look damn good... for a fat girl.<br /><br />Like I said above, I've gotten to the point where I don't always realize that I'm doing this. Apparently, I do this a lot, and not only about my looks or physical stature. I belittle my intelligence, what I've accomplished, my value to my friends... I think that I'm being realistic. However, I'm not. I'm being self-deprecating and undervaluing myself.<br /><br />A little bit of modesty is definitely a good thing, otherwise no one would be able to stand being around you. However, constantly being down on yourself drives people away, too. If there's anything that I've learned the hard way, it's that.<br /><br />So, in conclusion, I say this to myself, to Lisa, and to anyone else reading this (and I know I've said it before). The only person who can beat you is yourself. If you tell yourself, I can't do this, then guess what? You won't. At all. Ever. We can do this, regardless of what this is. We just have to stay motivated, which admittedly with weight loss is a hard thing, especially if nothing is happening. Keep telling yourself, I can do this. If you have a bad day, make the next day better. Stop looking at the scale and look at how you look, how you feel. In my opinion, when you are dieting and exercising (in moderation) it shows in how you hold yourself, because you feel better about yourself. You've admitted there's a problem and you're trying to do something about it, rather than just whining about it. It may take a while, but for most of us, the weight didn't appear over night, so there's no reason to expect it to disappear overnight as well. It's tough and frustrating and defeating, because we are changing habits of a lifetime, trying to get used to new ways of doing things. That's never easy. But keep doing it, and stop telling yourself it's pointless. Think of every underdog movie and cliche that you can to keep yourself going, because there's a reason that we like stories about those that keep trying and persevere, against the odds.<br /><br />Lisa, directly to you: I love you. I'm so glad that I met you and that you've motivated me to try and change the habits about myself that I don't like. You've kept me going on this longer than I would have been able to do on my own, even if our support (and our readers' support) is only online. I think that you are beautiful and fun and funny and an all around awesome person. I hope that you feel that way about yourself, as well.<br /><br />Okay, soap box rant over.Beckyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08772012884912668933noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4263080823800403719.post-10449726154763809892011-05-23T08:43:00.003-05:002011-05-23T08:58:40.456-05:00Creative Title Here...Current Stats:<br /><br />SW: 260 lbs<br />CW: 243 lbs<br /><br />TL: -17 lbs<br /><br />1st goal: -26 lbs (10%)<br /><br />*****<br /><br />So Lisa and I were talking Saturday night and both of us agreed that we don't necessarily like to post anything when we have nothing good to report. "Hello, Becky here, gained back 7 of my -17 lbs, trying to get that off, would be a lot easier without the popcorn and ice cream diet...." So that's why we go so long without writing anything, rather than give you an update every day (or even every other day) on the life of a dieter. Heck, everyone reading this (probably) knows what it's like to be on a diet.<br /><br />But I haven't posted in a little bit, so here we go. Still not doing okay with the no-smoking thing, but I blame Patrick. He's not quitting until work straightens out (he's a stress-smoker), so I have no self-control. However, I have stopped bringing them to work (and one of my main hookups for cigs stopped smoking last Friday, so that's... good). So I go the whole day without a cigarette and wait until I get home and have had dinner (for the most part) before I have my first one. I'm trying to keep it down to 3 or 4 a day.<br /><br />Sometimes I'm worried that I waited too long to quit smoking. I picked up my first cigarette 19 years ago, and have been what I would call a steady smoker for about 16 or 17 years (minus time off for pregnancies, of course). My lungs hurt a lot these days, especially in the morning. Even if I've only had two or three the day before, my chest feels like I chain-smoked an entire pack before I went to bed. I cough a lot, and it's that nasty smoker's cough.<br /><br />Apparently, I'm worried enough to dwell on it when I'm alone, but not enough to put them down and walk away. Damn it.<br /><br />So back to my friend that quit this past Friday - he was a pack a day smoker (Camel Wides) and he bought the e-cigarette. There was a little bit of an investment for it, but in the long run, it's definitely (financially) cheaper than smoking cigarettes. He says that it's been doing great for him. He went to the bar with some friends (normally a smoke-heavy event) and didn't feel the urge to have one, only a puff on his e-cig. That has definite possibilities. That's next on the list of things to try. Hopefully soon.<br /><br />Other than smoking, I've tried to stay pretty active lately. On Saturday morning, we re-seeded our backyard to try and get some grass to grow back there. That involved using a hand-tiller to break up the ground, spread peat moss, seed, and dirt, then mix it all together, in addition with putting up temporary fencing to keep kids and dogs off it and amusing/supervising the kids. (On a side note, you know kids have been having fun outside when the fastest way to get them clean is to hose them off and then dump them in the bath). Granted, after doing this work all morning, I had five pieces of pizza for lunch. :( Then I cleaned in the afternoon, and cleaned and rearranged the house (with help) on Sunday. Much better than sitting on my butt all weekend. The scale didn't move much this morning, but I'm hoping to get under 240 sometime this week or next. Hoping on staying there, too.<br /><br />I've discovered how far I walk in the mornings when I actually do it. It averages out to about 2 miles, walking at 3 miles an hour. Not very fast, not very far, but it still burns about 260 calories. That means that some mornings, by the time I get to work, I start out with "negative calories". Yay! I've also been getting comments about my appearance, that I look like I've been losing weight. Even if I haven't, that's always nice to hear. Makes me feel better about myself.<br /><br />Okay, time to get started on that work thing. Bye! :)Beckyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08772012884912668933noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4263080823800403719.post-81295462844284974982011-05-11T08:59:00.003-05:002011-05-11T09:02:36.591-05:00Smoking...It's like I have to wait for Lisa to post, then I do. It's all because I want to be like her. :)<br /><br />I'm not posting my stats because honestly, I haven't weighed myself recently. The past two weeks have been a little (!) crazy for me, and I haven't really stuck to the diet. Much. At all. Oh, well.<br /><br />So I've decided to jump back on the no-smoking bandwagon as well as the dieting one. I know, I know, I'm setting myself up for failure... maybe. I know it's hard to do both at once, and that it's suggested you quit smoking for about a year, then diet, but what can i say, I'm impatient.<br /><br />This past weekend was the Crucis alumni weekend. I waited until after then to quit smoking because I knew that there was no way I'd be able to not bum a smoke the whole weekend. I know my limitations. I also wanted to "over-smoke" so that I would be ready to put them down come Monday. I can say, it worked. At least, the over-smoking part did. We went up to Transfig (the outdoor chapel) Friday night and were singing some songs. My breathing was so bad that sometimes I would take a breath to sing and nothing would come out. I had no control over my singing voice and that bothered me (as well it should). My lungs hurt, I was coughing and hacking... Why the hell does anyone pick up this habit? Good Lord.<br /><br />Monday probably wasn't the best day for me to start, but it had to be sometime. Monday was the first day of finals week. I had two tests. I'm a creature of habit, in case you haven't picked up on this fact, and I'm used to going out to smoke prior to taking any test. It gives me a chance to either keep reveiwing or turn my mind off for a couple of minutes, let it reset. I didn't do that, though. I was proud of myself for nto going around, looking for a cigarette to bum. I know who smokes in the building. Instead, I found a Starburst candy cane from Christmas and sucked on that. (Funny story - it turned my lips and tongue green. I think I surprised the prof when I turned my test in and smiled, like I always do.)<br /><br />So I didn't smoke at all during the day (Monday and Tuesday). I didn't go to the store to get any, either, even though that is super-easy to do. Go me. However, when Patrick got home, I did smoke a couple of his. So I went from a pack and half over the course of Friday afternoon to Saturday night, 10 on Sunday, 4 on Monday, 3 yesterday. Yes, I am still taking advantage of the fact that Patrick is smoking (still). However, I'm trying to limit myself. Yesterday, I waited until after dinner to have one. Tonight, I'm going to wait until after the kids are in bed. I want to wean myself down for a little bit. I know that cold-turkey is better, but I'm weaning. I'm also not going to smoke around my parents. At all. If I spend the whole day with them, that means the whole day will be spent not smoking.<br /><br />As always, the hard part will be being around other smokers, and in social situations. Send good thoughts my way while I try to be strong.<br /><br />Back paying attention to the diet as well. My last test is on Thursday, so I'm back to the grind of work (it's nice being a grad student sometimes). I have to say, it's a lot easier being on a diet and walking and everything while I'm at work.<br /><br />On a side note, I'm now friends on FB with my high school boyfriend. It's actually providing me with a little more motivation to lose weight, etc. Ssshhhh. Don't tell anyone. :)<br /><br />(Side note #2 - the original title of this post was "Snoking..." Yay typos. Okay, randomness over.)Beckyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08772012884912668933noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4263080823800403719.post-24432788774245951882011-05-09T14:50:00.000-05:002011-05-09T14:50:26.790-05:00Happy (?) anniversary Becky.Looking back through our blog, I have come to the terrible yet true realization that it has been 6 months since we started this endeavor. Six months and I have only made one goal. On one hand I am proud of us for sticking to the attempt this long! Most people don't last 6 months on any plan. The other hand is too busy slapping me to count though. It is saying, " what the hell? Six months and all you did was 14 pounds that you have probably already gotten back). Yup, that is what my mind is focusing on. Becky and I know what to do. We just need to keep our goals and progress in check. <br />
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My brain wanted 2 pounds a week but my body only got 2 pounds per month. I am working on that. <br />
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It is still better than gaining! That is what I am used to so no matter what, it is progress.Lisahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00441839840378312195noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4263080823800403719.post-55396545460170599632011-05-09T14:39:00.000-05:002011-05-09T14:39:58.060-05:00so farIt has not even been a full day, I get that. However, I am super happy with lunch! I got the Turkey Tom Unwich at JimmyJohns. Wow - was shocked at how great it tasted! Especially when i could smell the bread baking from the drive-through window. One bite in and I was hooked. The lettuce wrap makes it crunchy and light. Granted , the bread does fill you up more but this just felt better going down. It also allowed me to taste the sandwich instead of only bread. I will be doing this more often. Next time though, I will replace the mayo with avacado spread and add cheese. I forgot when I got to order; I just got too excited I guess. <br />
I did not weigh myself this morning as I had planned. My schedule was completely thrown off by Chris flying to New Orleans this morning. The fast was not broken until lunch (just now). Tomorrow should be better and will begin with eggs with Lars. Lisahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00441839840378312195noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4263080823800403719.post-90436617422345811772011-05-06T16:27:00.000-05:002011-05-06T16:27:44.071-05:00Crazy Fat HeadI watched a documentary lately, Fat Head. It took me a week or so, with taking a few minutes in the morning to watch, getting interrupted by Lars, watching a bit more, interrupted, listening on the way to work, working, then starting it all over again the next day. Anyway, it was great!<br />
Taken from the website <a href="http://www.fathead-movie.com/">http://www.fathead-movie.com</a>:<br />
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<i><span style="background-color: white; color: blue;">Comedian (and former health writer) Tom Naughton replies to the blame-McDonald’s crowd by losing weight on a fat-laden fast-food diet while demonstrating that nearly everything we’ve been told about obesity and healthy eating is wrong. Along with some delicious parody of Super Size Me, Naughton serves up plenty of no-bologna facts that will stun most viewers, such as: The obesity “epidemic” has been wildly exaggerated by the CDC. People the government classifies as “overweight” have longer lifespans than people classified as “normal weight.” Having low cholesterol is unhealthy. Lowfat diets can lead to depression and type II diabetes. Saturated fat doesn’t cause heart disease — but sugars, starches and processed vegetable oils do.</span></i><br />
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So, I wrote a whole post under this and it has disappeared. Wonderful!<br />
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Anyway, I had mentioned that next week I will be starting my newest endeavor of watching carbs. I am not going full Adkins on anyone but I will be limiting them a bit more than normal and watching carbs more than anything else for a bit. It really is an experiment sort of. I was on Adkins a long time ago and was on it for about 2 months; I was strict on it as well. It did not work for me. In the entire two months, I lost 10 pounds and that was just in the first two weeks. It was extremely limiting for me. Doing it the way I will be trying is not so limiting. It is just watching them the same way I watch my calories currently. <br />
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I am starting this next week because, well, I will say I am not pregnant, and leave it at that. Next week will be a much better time to start. :O)<br />
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Damn, I sure liked my deleted post better.Lisahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00441839840378312195noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4263080823800403719.post-55674788775200064412011-05-04T22:31:00.000-05:002011-05-04T22:31:54.183-05:00I've got this.I am more than halfway to my goal #2!! Today I weighed myself and was a bit nervous to do so. See, last week I was not the good girl I should have been. Well, let me explain... no wait, it's coming to me... ummm... well, see there was this thing... errr... can I blame PMS? If so, how often can I use PMS as my scapegoat? <br />
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Last week, while horrible in my current visions, was not horrible compared to what used to be considered as such. "Horrible" in current lingo means not eating near as much as I would have even a few months ago on a bad day (fine, a bad week). Today it means eating a huge gigantic delicious bacon cheeseburger ONCE when a friend took me to lunch, rather than prior horrible times when I would each a cheeseburger for lunch and a pizza for dinner and soda and dessert... you get the point. Today it means realizing I ate said deliciousness and then keeping that in my mind the rest of the day, thus keeping me from going insane on the food around me and making it my bitch; this is what old me would have done. Nope, not new me. New me has a handle on things. That is the best way I can put it right now; I've got this. The sane part of my brain has a bit of a Neapolitan (mmmm), err, Napoleon complex. It is the smaller, yet seemingly more powerful part. <br />
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Today there are 13.5 pounds to go until I reach my #2 goal of 10%. <br />
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Someday soon, Lady Fingers crossed, I will be able to get into the pool. Sure, today it is green and coated with a fuzzy layer of cotton wood tree dander but soon it will be clear and cool on those nice hot days. I can swim off the pounds in no time! <br />
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I am so proud of Becky. You are doing such an amazing job at this! Keep it up! You look absolutely gorgeous and I am super jealous! More proud than jealous though but that is only because I take some credit for it. Because I am selfish and need that to make myself feel better about you kicking my ass in this. :O)Lisahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00441839840378312195noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4263080823800403719.post-90534173377146882672011-04-28T08:53:00.002-05:002011-04-28T09:10:47.441-05:00Goal #1SW: 260 lbs<br />CW: 243 lbs<br /><br />TL: -17 lbs<br /><br />First goal: -26 lbs, to 234<br /><br />*****<br /><br />So I finally broke past that 245. Let's see if I can keep that downward trend going with my birthday tomorrow. I know there will be a cake at work, Dakota will be horribly upset if I don't make a cake for us at home, and I'm going out to celebrate Haagen's birthday, so I will be drinking. And this afternoon, I'm going to get my haircut with my best friend. We are probably going to do dinner afterwards. I would love to go to an actual restaurant, be able to get a margarita or something, instead of just fast food, or even Subway (although that is probably the healthiest option). I'm keeping my calorie options open by not snacking and keeping them low this morning.<br /><br />Getting my haircut for my birthday was originally supposed to be my reward for hitting my goal weight by my goal date. However, unless I cut off a foot or something, it's pretty much impossible to lose 9 pounds in one day. I'm okay with this, though. I'll just have to see how long past my birthday it takes to hit that goal. Hopefully not too long. Just like Lisa said (and I commented), I've adjusted my caloric intake down to 1350 a day. Since I *never* hit my goal intake (I'm usually 100-300 over), this gives me wiggle room. I've also cut out my oatmeal breakfast in the morning and pretty much halved my breakfast calories by having a bowl of cereal. And di you know that strawberries are only about 4 calories a piece? Yeah, I didn't either, but I'm going to take advantage of that fact while they are in season. (One of the boring parts about reading about weight loss - for calorie counters, we go into detail about what has what calories and how much we ate, etc. I've seen it happen on dieting boards, so thanks for bearing with me.) I also walked an hour yesterday morning after dropping Jamie off at day care, and I'll walk again tomorrow morning. I'm trying to walk at least 30 minutes at once, since apparently that is the best for you. When I will start the run/job thing again? No idea. I'm kind of putting it off at the moment. Do you want to my excuses? I've got 'em!<br /><br />Now, I haven't really noticed a difference in how I look. Granted, that's also because I see myself every day, all day, obviously, so it'll take a while before it's noticeable to me. However, I've had comments. From Patrick, from our Aunt Janine, from Dakota, of all people. I still think they are slightly biased in my favor, but whatever, I'll take 'em!<br /><br />Side note: is that being down on myself? I got reamed by someone, who was admittedly drunk at the time, about constantly being down on myself and still having no self-esteem, etc. I was very surprised when I was told this, because I didn't think I was being down on myself at all. Is this kind of think what was being referred to, though? There's a small difference, then, between being self-degrading and being realistic. In my head, I'm erring on the realistic side.<br /><br />Okay, I'm back. I may not really notice a difference, but there is a difference in my attitude towards myself. I feel prettier, freer, etc, and I feel like it's reflected in the way I present myself. I've also found myself gravitating towards brighter, flashier colors. For the first time since I was, like, 8, I would love to have a bright pink cardigan sweater. I need a new purse, and I was checking out red ones and green ones, etc. Not beige, not brown, not black. I looked at some patent leather pumps with what I call hooker heels on them (really tall heels that weren't quite stilettos) that had a peep toe and were bright red... I want something attention-getting. That may also be the fact that Spring is finally here, but I don't think so. (Of course, if you look at me today, I don't reflect the color thing - beige slacks, brown shirt, white undershirt, and beige cardigan. Blue jewelry, though!)<br /><br />I think I've also gotten back to the point of quitting smoking soon, so we'll see how that goes again. Maybe May 9th? That's when I'm thinking about putting them down again.<br /><br />Okay, rambling done for now. I have to get back to work. Geez, I'm so super-busy right now, can't you just leave me alone? ;)Beckyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08772012884912668933noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4263080823800403719.post-74003166313867074402011-04-27T07:31:00.001-05:002011-04-27T07:31:53.683-05:00Meh, I could be better.While I have not really gained it back, I am not losing a lot either. Becky, I am doing EXACTLY what you are. All week I eat great but the weekend I don't. It's not like I spend the weekend going all out or anything. In fact, I make a great effort not to do that. However, I don't eat what I would call good stuff; I just eat less of the bad stuff than I used to. <br />
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This means I spend all week losing all of that weight again plus just a little extra. It would be a lot extra if I didn't spend all weekend defying myself. <br />
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I rode the bike today though for the first time in a LONG time. I only rode a mile but it is a start; a restart I guess. I have been working a lot on he weekends around the house and outside though, so that is great! I also got the pool up again this weekend and worked my ass off doing it. Actually, my body ached Monday so bad but it was nice to feel like I worked some muscles. This means I will be swimming again soon, hopefully this weekend. There are a lot of leaves I need to clean out of it first. Plus, it still is a bit on the chilly side. <br />
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I weight myself on Friday and I was 265.5 still; right where I was on last Friday. I will weigh myself today even though I am pretty damn sure it will be higher than that since it is only Tuesday. <br />
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This week, ok, starting today, I am going to refocus and do even better this week and then this weekend. Normally, I do great during the week. I am going to cut the calories just a bit more over the week, this should allow for a few extra to be had on the weekends. My goal has been 1465 (don't ask me why - it is just what my calorie counter has picked for me) but I think I will lower that during the week to 1200 - 1300. Let's see how that goes, shall we?<br />
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I HAVE to do this. I AM doing this, I just have to do a better job at it. Failure is not an option and I am not completely disappointed with how I have been doing either. You guys better not be either.Lisahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00441839840378312195noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4263080823800403719.post-79473774048828688002011-04-15T10:08:00.004-05:002011-04-15T10:18:00.944-05:00Yo-yo weightI am at work right now, waiting for my 11 am class to start. I could be doing something productive (after all, I do have to give a presentation tomorrow), but instead, I'm procrastinating. I've checked FB, I'm caught up on my email and everything else. I thought to myself, oh no, now I actually have to work?!<br /><br />Then my eye caught the link for the The Vice Girls, and voila! Saved from work!<br /><br />*****<br />Current stats:<br /><br />SW: 260 lbs<br />CW: 245 lbs.<br /><br />TL: -15 lbs<br /><br />1st goal: -26 lbs<br />*****<br /><br />So I'm back down to -15 lbs. I keep going back and forth between here and 250. I think I figured out why, though. It's a cycle. I'm so happy to get to 245 that I totally (well, a little) through out the diet on Friday and have more than I should. Then comes the weekend, where I eat what my kids eat (I don't snack all day, but I definitely don't have soup for lunch like I do during the week). I don't get my walking in, either, although I do clean the house and work outside. So come Monday, it's creeping back up, and I spend the whole week being good and trying to get it back down. So today, I shall not do that! I'm still going to have a healthy lunch, low-cal, and then Subway for dinner (because Fridays are our fast food day at home). Tomorrow morning when we get on the road, I'm going to have a healthy breakfast before I leave, not stop for Whataburger on the way. (Well....) Healthy lunch, etc. I have to try to keep this going. Oh, yeah, and not forget about my water. I've been doing really good on the water intake. It probably helps that I have a bottle that is 23.7 ounces. I fill it up three times and I've hit my 64 oz for the day, then I just keep going.<br /><br />So here;s to keeping it going! I have two weeks to lose 11 pounds. You are only supposed to lose two pounds a week, on average, to keep from getting too much excess skin and nastiness like that, but maybe I can get closer before my birthday. I'd like to definitely be out of the 250s and into 240s territory at the least.<br /><br />Today is a good day. :)<br /><br />And finally, for your edification and enjoyment, we turn to cracked.com:<br /><br />http://www.cracked.com/article_19069_6-diet-fads-people-who-will-try-anything-except-exercise_p2.html<br />http://www.cracked.com/article_18549_8-health-foods-that-are-bad-your-health.htmlBeckyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08772012884912668933noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4263080823800403719.post-6734870768404944032011-04-09T13:01:00.000-05:002011-04-09T13:01:29.380-05:00My tight jeans aren't so tight anymoreThat's right, the jeans I had to steal from my mom (because they were too big for her) are now the perfect fit! THAT, my friends, is the feeling of success. Honestly, I can't believe I am actually doing it. It feels amazing. Slowly, very slowly, the feeling of pride and self-worth is coming back to this vice girl. <br />
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Right now, I am only using the scale at work. It is one of those medical ones with the sliding measures. No sense trying to compute two different weights from two scales. <br />
Can I find a cheap one for my house, I wonder?Lisahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00441839840378312195noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4263080823800403719.post-23008623355500025072011-04-08T14:49:00.000-05:002011-04-08T14:49:20.546-05:00Tipping the wagon now and then never hurt anyone.I have not gotten off the wagon - I am just kind of riding the rails with it. This past weekend I had a fantastic dinner with Chris and our amazing friends, Bo and Mindy. It was decadent and 100% guilt free. Once in a while we need those times! Fondue, oh yes, fondue. Cheese fondue, oil fondue, chocolate fondue... damn it was delicious! <br />
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Real world, circa Monday after fondue: 3 pounds heavier. It is totally fine though! It was worth it and I knew it would come off again. So, today (Friday) I am down that three pounds AND some! 267.5 for a total loss of 7.5! <br />
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Theoretically, I may have been 3 pounds lighter than that had I skipped the fondue delights. On the other hand, maybe the splurge kick-started my system again and helped me lose more than I would have without it. we will never know and I don't care; not one bit. <br />
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Goal number one - I am coming for you. Don't be scared though; I will make it past you before you know what hit you.Lisahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00441839840378312195noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4263080823800403719.post-16054680598520409062011-04-08T08:04:00.002-05:002011-04-08T08:17:12.083-05:00Water weight... BooSW: 260 lbs<br />CW: 250 lbs<br />Loss: -10 lbs<br /><br />1st goal: -26 lbs<br /><br />*****<br />So I figured that the first weight that I lost so easily was nothing but water weight. Boo. I thought that I has staying relatively hydrated, but that's what cutting coffee and DDP out of my diet have done for me. Go me!<br /><br />I haven't posted in a little bit because I was hoping the extra five pounds that I gained back would go away. It didn't, so there ya go. I think I fell off the wagon just a little bit with my diet, not really paying attention to what I was eating. I know I did that for sure on Tuesday. I found out that I've been selected to be an NSF Fellow for this year (which means over $120,000 towards my graduate education from NSF), so I went out to lunch with a friend to celebrate it. I got a very high-fat, high-cal turkey BLT (but sooooo good!) with homemade chips. I was good and only ate half of it in the restaurant. Then I went home in the middle of the afternoon and ate the rest, then had dinner on top of that. Self control FAIL.<br /><br />I'm frustrated, but only a little. I still want to hit my first goal by my birthday (which is in three weeks). I don't know if I'll be able to do it, but I should be close, hopefully. I've upped my walking so that I walk an extra block to drop Jamie off to day care in the morning (for a total of about 20 minutes round trip), and I actually walked yesterday to go pick him up, too. He got a kick out of that. That gave me a total of about 35 minutes of walking. I'm also trying to watch my sodium intake and drink more water. With this new huge water bottle that I have, maybe I need to up my water goals. Or continue drinking water at home, not just at work. :)<br /><br />I need to start thinking about putting down cigarettes again, too. Hmmm.Beckyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08772012884912668933noreply@blogger.com0