It's like I have to wait for Lisa to post, then I do. It's all because I want to be like her. :)
I'm not posting my stats because honestly, I haven't weighed myself recently. The past two weeks have been a little (!) crazy for me, and I haven't really stuck to the diet. Much. At all. Oh, well.
So I've decided to jump back on the no-smoking bandwagon as well as the dieting one. I know, I know, I'm setting myself up for failure... maybe. I know it's hard to do both at once, and that it's suggested you quit smoking for about a year, then diet, but what can i say, I'm impatient.
This past weekend was the Crucis alumni weekend. I waited until after then to quit smoking because I knew that there was no way I'd be able to not bum a smoke the whole weekend. I know my limitations. I also wanted to "over-smoke" so that I would be ready to put them down come Monday. I can say, it worked. At least, the over-smoking part did. We went up to Transfig (the outdoor chapel) Friday night and were singing some songs. My breathing was so bad that sometimes I would take a breath to sing and nothing would come out. I had no control over my singing voice and that bothered me (as well it should). My lungs hurt, I was coughing and hacking... Why the hell does anyone pick up this habit? Good Lord.
Monday probably wasn't the best day for me to start, but it had to be sometime. Monday was the first day of finals week. I had two tests. I'm a creature of habit, in case you haven't picked up on this fact, and I'm used to going out to smoke prior to taking any test. It gives me a chance to either keep reveiwing or turn my mind off for a couple of minutes, let it reset. I didn't do that, though. I was proud of myself for nto going around, looking for a cigarette to bum. I know who smokes in the building. Instead, I found a Starburst candy cane from Christmas and sucked on that. (Funny story - it turned my lips and tongue green. I think I surprised the prof when I turned my test in and smiled, like I always do.)
So I didn't smoke at all during the day (Monday and Tuesday). I didn't go to the store to get any, either, even though that is super-easy to do. Go me. However, when Patrick got home, I did smoke a couple of his. So I went from a pack and half over the course of Friday afternoon to Saturday night, 10 on Sunday, 4 on Monday, 3 yesterday. Yes, I am still taking advantage of the fact that Patrick is smoking (still). However, I'm trying to limit myself. Yesterday, I waited until after dinner to have one. Tonight, I'm going to wait until after the kids are in bed. I want to wean myself down for a little bit. I know that cold-turkey is better, but I'm weaning. I'm also not going to smoke around my parents. At all. If I spend the whole day with them, that means the whole day will be spent not smoking.
As always, the hard part will be being around other smokers, and in social situations. Send good thoughts my way while I try to be strong.
Back paying attention to the diet as well. My last test is on Thursday, so I'm back to the grind of work (it's nice being a grad student sometimes). I have to say, it's a lot easier being on a diet and walking and everything while I'm at work.
On a side note, I'm now friends on FB with my high school boyfriend. It's actually providing me with a little more motivation to lose weight, etc. Ssshhhh. Don't tell anyone. :)
(Side note #2 - the original title of this post was "Snoking..." Yay typos. Okay, randomness over.)
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
Monday, May 9, 2011
Happy (?) anniversary Becky.
Looking back through our blog, I have come to the terrible yet true realization that it has been 6 months since we started this endeavor. Six months and I have only made one goal. On one hand I am proud of us for sticking to the attempt this long! Most people don't last 6 months on any plan. The other hand is too busy slapping me to count though. It is saying, " what the hell? Six months and all you did was 14 pounds that you have probably already gotten back). Yup, that is what my mind is focusing on. Becky and I know what to do. We just need to keep our goals and progress in check.
My brain wanted 2 pounds a week but my body only got 2 pounds per month. I am working on that.
It is still better than gaining! That is what I am used to so no matter what, it is progress.
My brain wanted 2 pounds a week but my body only got 2 pounds per month. I am working on that.
It is still better than gaining! That is what I am used to so no matter what, it is progress.
so far
It has not even been a full day, I get that. However, I am super happy with lunch! I got the Turkey Tom Unwich at JimmyJohns. Wow - was shocked at how great it tasted! Especially when i could smell the bread baking from the drive-through window. One bite in and I was hooked. The lettuce wrap makes it crunchy and light. Granted , the bread does fill you up more but this just felt better going down. It also allowed me to taste the sandwich instead of only bread. I will be doing this more often. Next time though, I will replace the mayo with avacado spread and add cheese. I forgot when I got to order; I just got too excited I guess.
I did not weigh myself this morning as I had planned. My schedule was completely thrown off by Chris flying to New Orleans this morning. The fast was not broken until lunch (just now). Tomorrow should be better and will begin with eggs with Lars.
I did not weigh myself this morning as I had planned. My schedule was completely thrown off by Chris flying to New Orleans this morning. The fast was not broken until lunch (just now). Tomorrow should be better and will begin with eggs with Lars.
Friday, May 6, 2011
Crazy Fat Head
I watched a documentary lately, Fat Head. It took me a week or so, with taking a few minutes in the morning to watch, getting interrupted by Lars, watching a bit more, interrupted, listening on the way to work, working, then starting it all over again the next day. Anyway, it was great!
Taken from the website http://www.fathead-movie.com:
Comedian (and former health writer) Tom Naughton replies to the blame-McDonald’s crowd by losing weight on a fat-laden fast-food diet while demonstrating that nearly everything we’ve been told about obesity and healthy eating is wrong. Along with some delicious parody of Super Size Me, Naughton serves up plenty of no-bologna facts that will stun most viewers, such as: The obesity “epidemic” has been wildly exaggerated by the CDC. People the government classifies as “overweight” have longer lifespans than people classified as “normal weight.” Having low cholesterol is unhealthy. Lowfat diets can lead to depression and type II diabetes. Saturated fat doesn’t cause heart disease — but sugars, starches and processed vegetable oils do.
So, I wrote a whole post under this and it has disappeared. Wonderful!
Anyway, I had mentioned that next week I will be starting my newest endeavor of watching carbs. I am not going full Adkins on anyone but I will be limiting them a bit more than normal and watching carbs more than anything else for a bit. It really is an experiment sort of. I was on Adkins a long time ago and was on it for about 2 months; I was strict on it as well. It did not work for me. In the entire two months, I lost 10 pounds and that was just in the first two weeks. It was extremely limiting for me. Doing it the way I will be trying is not so limiting. It is just watching them the same way I watch my calories currently.
I am starting this next week because, well, I will say I am not pregnant, and leave it at that. Next week will be a much better time to start. :O)
Damn, I sure liked my deleted post better.
Taken from the website http://www.fathead-movie.com:
Comedian (and former health writer) Tom Naughton replies to the blame-McDonald’s crowd by losing weight on a fat-laden fast-food diet while demonstrating that nearly everything we’ve been told about obesity and healthy eating is wrong. Along with some delicious parody of Super Size Me, Naughton serves up plenty of no-bologna facts that will stun most viewers, such as: The obesity “epidemic” has been wildly exaggerated by the CDC. People the government classifies as “overweight” have longer lifespans than people classified as “normal weight.” Having low cholesterol is unhealthy. Lowfat diets can lead to depression and type II diabetes. Saturated fat doesn’t cause heart disease — but sugars, starches and processed vegetable oils do.
So, I wrote a whole post under this and it has disappeared. Wonderful!
Anyway, I had mentioned that next week I will be starting my newest endeavor of watching carbs. I am not going full Adkins on anyone but I will be limiting them a bit more than normal and watching carbs more than anything else for a bit. It really is an experiment sort of. I was on Adkins a long time ago and was on it for about 2 months; I was strict on it as well. It did not work for me. In the entire two months, I lost 10 pounds and that was just in the first two weeks. It was extremely limiting for me. Doing it the way I will be trying is not so limiting. It is just watching them the same way I watch my calories currently.
I am starting this next week because, well, I will say I am not pregnant, and leave it at that. Next week will be a much better time to start. :O)
Damn, I sure liked my deleted post better.
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
I've got this.
I am more than halfway to my goal #2!! Today I weighed myself and was a bit nervous to do so. See, last week I was not the good girl I should have been. Well, let me explain... no wait, it's coming to me... ummm... well, see there was this thing... errr... can I blame PMS? If so, how often can I use PMS as my scapegoat?
Last week, while horrible in my current visions, was not horrible compared to what used to be considered as such. "Horrible" in current lingo means not eating near as much as I would have even a few months ago on a bad day (fine, a bad week). Today it means eating a huge gigantic delicious bacon cheeseburger ONCE when a friend took me to lunch, rather than prior horrible times when I would each a cheeseburger for lunch and a pizza for dinner and soda and dessert... you get the point. Today it means realizing I ate said deliciousness and then keeping that in my mind the rest of the day, thus keeping me from going insane on the food around me and making it my bitch; this is what old me would have done. Nope, not new me. New me has a handle on things. That is the best way I can put it right now; I've got this. The sane part of my brain has a bit of a Neapolitan (mmmm), err, Napoleon complex. It is the smaller, yet seemingly more powerful part.
Today there are 13.5 pounds to go until I reach my #2 goal of 10%.
Someday soon, Lady Fingers crossed, I will be able to get into the pool. Sure, today it is green and coated with a fuzzy layer of cotton wood tree dander but soon it will be clear and cool on those nice hot days. I can swim off the pounds in no time!
I am so proud of Becky. You are doing such an amazing job at this! Keep it up! You look absolutely gorgeous and I am super jealous! More proud than jealous though but that is only because I take some credit for it. Because I am selfish and need that to make myself feel better about you kicking my ass in this. :O)
Last week, while horrible in my current visions, was not horrible compared to what used to be considered as such. "Horrible" in current lingo means not eating near as much as I would have even a few months ago on a bad day (fine, a bad week). Today it means eating a huge gigantic delicious bacon cheeseburger ONCE when a friend took me to lunch, rather than prior horrible times when I would each a cheeseburger for lunch and a pizza for dinner and soda and dessert... you get the point. Today it means realizing I ate said deliciousness and then keeping that in my mind the rest of the day, thus keeping me from going insane on the food around me and making it my bitch; this is what old me would have done. Nope, not new me. New me has a handle on things. That is the best way I can put it right now; I've got this. The sane part of my brain has a bit of a Neapolitan (mmmm), err, Napoleon complex. It is the smaller, yet seemingly more powerful part.
Today there are 13.5 pounds to go until I reach my #2 goal of 10%.
Someday soon, Lady Fingers crossed, I will be able to get into the pool. Sure, today it is green and coated with a fuzzy layer of cotton wood tree dander but soon it will be clear and cool on those nice hot days. I can swim off the pounds in no time!
I am so proud of Becky. You are doing such an amazing job at this! Keep it up! You look absolutely gorgeous and I am super jealous! More proud than jealous though but that is only because I take some credit for it. Because I am selfish and need that to make myself feel better about you kicking my ass in this. :O)
Thursday, April 28, 2011
Goal #1
SW: 260 lbs
CW: 243 lbs
TL: -17 lbs
First goal: -26 lbs, to 234
*****
So I finally broke past that 245. Let's see if I can keep that downward trend going with my birthday tomorrow. I know there will be a cake at work, Dakota will be horribly upset if I don't make a cake for us at home, and I'm going out to celebrate Haagen's birthday, so I will be drinking. And this afternoon, I'm going to get my haircut with my best friend. We are probably going to do dinner afterwards. I would love to go to an actual restaurant, be able to get a margarita or something, instead of just fast food, or even Subway (although that is probably the healthiest option). I'm keeping my calorie options open by not snacking and keeping them low this morning.
Getting my haircut for my birthday was originally supposed to be my reward for hitting my goal weight by my goal date. However, unless I cut off a foot or something, it's pretty much impossible to lose 9 pounds in one day. I'm okay with this, though. I'll just have to see how long past my birthday it takes to hit that goal. Hopefully not too long. Just like Lisa said (and I commented), I've adjusted my caloric intake down to 1350 a day. Since I *never* hit my goal intake (I'm usually 100-300 over), this gives me wiggle room. I've also cut out my oatmeal breakfast in the morning and pretty much halved my breakfast calories by having a bowl of cereal. And di you know that strawberries are only about 4 calories a piece? Yeah, I didn't either, but I'm going to take advantage of that fact while they are in season. (One of the boring parts about reading about weight loss - for calorie counters, we go into detail about what has what calories and how much we ate, etc. I've seen it happen on dieting boards, so thanks for bearing with me.) I also walked an hour yesterday morning after dropping Jamie off at day care, and I'll walk again tomorrow morning. I'm trying to walk at least 30 minutes at once, since apparently that is the best for you. When I will start the run/job thing again? No idea. I'm kind of putting it off at the moment. Do you want to my excuses? I've got 'em!
Now, I haven't really noticed a difference in how I look. Granted, that's also because I see myself every day, all day, obviously, so it'll take a while before it's noticeable to me. However, I've had comments. From Patrick, from our Aunt Janine, from Dakota, of all people. I still think they are slightly biased in my favor, but whatever, I'll take 'em!
Side note: is that being down on myself? I got reamed by someone, who was admittedly drunk at the time, about constantly being down on myself and still having no self-esteem, etc. I was very surprised when I was told this, because I didn't think I was being down on myself at all. Is this kind of think what was being referred to, though? There's a small difference, then, between being self-degrading and being realistic. In my head, I'm erring on the realistic side.
Okay, I'm back. I may not really notice a difference, but there is a difference in my attitude towards myself. I feel prettier, freer, etc, and I feel like it's reflected in the way I present myself. I've also found myself gravitating towards brighter, flashier colors. For the first time since I was, like, 8, I would love to have a bright pink cardigan sweater. I need a new purse, and I was checking out red ones and green ones, etc. Not beige, not brown, not black. I looked at some patent leather pumps with what I call hooker heels on them (really tall heels that weren't quite stilettos) that had a peep toe and were bright red... I want something attention-getting. That may also be the fact that Spring is finally here, but I don't think so. (Of course, if you look at me today, I don't reflect the color thing - beige slacks, brown shirt, white undershirt, and beige cardigan. Blue jewelry, though!)
I think I've also gotten back to the point of quitting smoking soon, so we'll see how that goes again. Maybe May 9th? That's when I'm thinking about putting them down again.
Okay, rambling done for now. I have to get back to work. Geez, I'm so super-busy right now, can't you just leave me alone? ;)
CW: 243 lbs
TL: -17 lbs
First goal: -26 lbs, to 234
*****
So I finally broke past that 245. Let's see if I can keep that downward trend going with my birthday tomorrow. I know there will be a cake at work, Dakota will be horribly upset if I don't make a cake for us at home, and I'm going out to celebrate Haagen's birthday, so I will be drinking. And this afternoon, I'm going to get my haircut with my best friend. We are probably going to do dinner afterwards. I would love to go to an actual restaurant, be able to get a margarita or something, instead of just fast food, or even Subway (although that is probably the healthiest option). I'm keeping my calorie options open by not snacking and keeping them low this morning.
Getting my haircut for my birthday was originally supposed to be my reward for hitting my goal weight by my goal date. However, unless I cut off a foot or something, it's pretty much impossible to lose 9 pounds in one day. I'm okay with this, though. I'll just have to see how long past my birthday it takes to hit that goal. Hopefully not too long. Just like Lisa said (and I commented), I've adjusted my caloric intake down to 1350 a day. Since I *never* hit my goal intake (I'm usually 100-300 over), this gives me wiggle room. I've also cut out my oatmeal breakfast in the morning and pretty much halved my breakfast calories by having a bowl of cereal. And di you know that strawberries are only about 4 calories a piece? Yeah, I didn't either, but I'm going to take advantage of that fact while they are in season. (One of the boring parts about reading about weight loss - for calorie counters, we go into detail about what has what calories and how much we ate, etc. I've seen it happen on dieting boards, so thanks for bearing with me.) I also walked an hour yesterday morning after dropping Jamie off at day care, and I'll walk again tomorrow morning. I'm trying to walk at least 30 minutes at once, since apparently that is the best for you. When I will start the run/job thing again? No idea. I'm kind of putting it off at the moment. Do you want to my excuses? I've got 'em!
Now, I haven't really noticed a difference in how I look. Granted, that's also because I see myself every day, all day, obviously, so it'll take a while before it's noticeable to me. However, I've had comments. From Patrick, from our Aunt Janine, from Dakota, of all people. I still think they are slightly biased in my favor, but whatever, I'll take 'em!
Side note: is that being down on myself? I got reamed by someone, who was admittedly drunk at the time, about constantly being down on myself and still having no self-esteem, etc. I was very surprised when I was told this, because I didn't think I was being down on myself at all. Is this kind of think what was being referred to, though? There's a small difference, then, between being self-degrading and being realistic. In my head, I'm erring on the realistic side.
Okay, I'm back. I may not really notice a difference, but there is a difference in my attitude towards myself. I feel prettier, freer, etc, and I feel like it's reflected in the way I present myself. I've also found myself gravitating towards brighter, flashier colors. For the first time since I was, like, 8, I would love to have a bright pink cardigan sweater. I need a new purse, and I was checking out red ones and green ones, etc. Not beige, not brown, not black. I looked at some patent leather pumps with what I call hooker heels on them (really tall heels that weren't quite stilettos) that had a peep toe and were bright red... I want something attention-getting. That may also be the fact that Spring is finally here, but I don't think so. (Of course, if you look at me today, I don't reflect the color thing - beige slacks, brown shirt, white undershirt, and beige cardigan. Blue jewelry, though!)
I think I've also gotten back to the point of quitting smoking soon, so we'll see how that goes again. Maybe May 9th? That's when I'm thinking about putting them down again.
Okay, rambling done for now. I have to get back to work. Geez, I'm so super-busy right now, can't you just leave me alone? ;)
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Meh, I could be better.
While I have not really gained it back, I am not losing a lot either. Becky, I am doing EXACTLY what you are. All week I eat great but the weekend I don't. It's not like I spend the weekend going all out or anything. In fact, I make a great effort not to do that. However, I don't eat what I would call good stuff; I just eat less of the bad stuff than I used to.
This means I spend all week losing all of that weight again plus just a little extra. It would be a lot extra if I didn't spend all weekend defying myself.
I rode the bike today though for the first time in a LONG time. I only rode a mile but it is a start; a restart I guess. I have been working a lot on he weekends around the house and outside though, so that is great! I also got the pool up again this weekend and worked my ass off doing it. Actually, my body ached Monday so bad but it was nice to feel like I worked some muscles. This means I will be swimming again soon, hopefully this weekend. There are a lot of leaves I need to clean out of it first. Plus, it still is a bit on the chilly side.
I weight myself on Friday and I was 265.5 still; right where I was on last Friday. I will weigh myself today even though I am pretty damn sure it will be higher than that since it is only Tuesday.
This week, ok, starting today, I am going to refocus and do even better this week and then this weekend. Normally, I do great during the week. I am going to cut the calories just a bit more over the week, this should allow for a few extra to be had on the weekends. My goal has been 1465 (don't ask me why - it is just what my calorie counter has picked for me) but I think I will lower that during the week to 1200 - 1300. Let's see how that goes, shall we?
I HAVE to do this. I AM doing this, I just have to do a better job at it. Failure is not an option and I am not completely disappointed with how I have been doing either. You guys better not be either.
This means I spend all week losing all of that weight again plus just a little extra. It would be a lot extra if I didn't spend all weekend defying myself.
I rode the bike today though for the first time in a LONG time. I only rode a mile but it is a start; a restart I guess. I have been working a lot on he weekends around the house and outside though, so that is great! I also got the pool up again this weekend and worked my ass off doing it. Actually, my body ached Monday so bad but it was nice to feel like I worked some muscles. This means I will be swimming again soon, hopefully this weekend. There are a lot of leaves I need to clean out of it first. Plus, it still is a bit on the chilly side.
I weight myself on Friday and I was 265.5 still; right where I was on last Friday. I will weigh myself today even though I am pretty damn sure it will be higher than that since it is only Tuesday.
This week, ok, starting today, I am going to refocus and do even better this week and then this weekend. Normally, I do great during the week. I am going to cut the calories just a bit more over the week, this should allow for a few extra to be had on the weekends. My goal has been 1465 (don't ask me why - it is just what my calorie counter has picked for me) but I think I will lower that during the week to 1200 - 1300. Let's see how that goes, shall we?
I HAVE to do this. I AM doing this, I just have to do a better job at it. Failure is not an option and I am not completely disappointed with how I have been doing either. You guys better not be either.
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